Towerwatch

Well now, after looking through your blog posts, I can certainly see why you chose your username. The way you recollect these stories almost reads like fiction, and I like the way you structure it, albeit, I'm not a real fan of the subject matter. 

And as for your question, I don't really think it's a question of should you go, and more of what reason would make you not want to go. Judging from "I was such a slut at that party last night", you're fully capable of acknowledging these habits of yours are a self destructive, but you get a thrill from it so you persist anyway. I don't think anything anyone says is going to stop you from going to a party that has all of your favorite vices, so I fully expect another blog post detailing that encounter as well. 

I really find your mindset... intriguing for lack of better description, as it varies from all the sluts I've known in my time. Most of them were on harder drugs than just weed and alcohol, and most of them hated themselves for what they became. I'd like to pick your brain as you share more on the topic, that is, IF you're willing to share more.